Loving the silence, loving the absence

As a mom it can get quite hectic sometimes, quite loud and quite tiring.  Having two children under two can take it out of you, physically and emotionally.  You're constantly worried about the health and development of your child.  Am I doing it right?  Am I being a good mom.  Your child is constantly looking to you for love, care, nutrition, fun, enjoyment etc etc etc; and that's not even the half of it.

When my 22month old toddler goes for an overnighter to her Nana's house - I cant wait for the moment when she is being dropped off, that's because I love the moment when silence begins to fills the air.  You can sit down and have bit of a rest, clean and tidy the things you've been meaning too but havent quite got around to it, check your facebook / twitter without feeling guilty because your attention isnt on your child, play facebook games, do the washing or even have a shower.  But then comes the time when the silence begins to feel too deafening.  You miss the noise your children make, the laughing, the crying, you miss your child calling out to you, watching them dance to their favourite music.

For that small amount of time I love the silence I love the absence but I also refill my love tank for my beautiful children and it makes me appreciate them all the more.

Looking at a new career path

With the uncertain economic times that have most of us on edge, is it a good time to look at upskilling or choosing a whole new career path in general?  I have been asking myself this question a lot lately.  Why?  Well my hubby and I have recently started a family.  Our daughter is 22monthls old and our son has just turned 5months; BUT we are planning on having two more children somewhere along the way quite soon.  I do still want to go back to work (or have to because of our financial situation) but do I go back to what I have always done (but dont really like anymore), or do I go along the uncertain journey of studying something for a total career change?  This will not guarantee me a job, there are many University graduates who are still unemployed.  If they cant find jobs is there any hope for me?  The answer to this question is YES.  I have faith in my ability and the determination that once I study something and complete it to the best of my ability I will find a position that will utilise my new skills or better yet, be my own boss.

What will the new career path be however?  Still deciding on that one.